papertiger

That's totally sensible. I know that we all wish you the very, very best rosy

 

After reading your post I am very moved. I hope this post and your experiences will make some others pause for thought on undergoing elective surgery. It's a huge undertaking and totally risky, people can only minimise it, but the risk will always be there. Even after successful surgery (like your fist) people are still not satisfied. Perhaps appearance is not where the unhappiness stems from? Your reflection on recent past's events is very honest, even though you are obviously struggling. It's very brave of you to 'go public'. Your family obviously love you and cherish you, I am glad they have been supportive.

Although we cannot see you, from your history it may be that you are quite hyper-critical about your appearance as so many young adults naturally are. What we look like or our view of our perhaps question past decisions should not be our sole indicator of self-worth. Give yourself a little break, don't panic, in a couple of months consult with reputable doctors who can perhaps help you in the future. Give yourself hope as a present for today, tomorrow you can start panning your future.